Grateful For Time Back
I’ve always been the ideas queen, but with little to no time to execute them all. This quarantine has forced me to stop everything that has prevented or hindered me from doing what I was born to do and that is create media content, have honest conversation and in so doing, influence mindsets.
I've always had people commend me on my work rate, and whilst I have humbly accepted it, a big part of me has always known I have not even worked close to half of my potential.
Earlier this year, I started feeling like it was time to focus on and nurture my baby, MCTV.
It was an exciting, yet scary thought. The reason being, I'll be honest, MCTV was not my main money maker. I freelance as a videographer/ editor and that’s what’s been paying the bills and in fact funding MCTV, to some degree. I mean sure, MCTV makes ad revenue and a couple sponsorships here and there but in terms of overall income, it’s been more 20% YouTube, 80% Business; and even then, I’d rarely touch YouTube money, unless I really need to.
So, whilst the thought of focusing on MCTV excited my spirit, my flesh quickly grounded me back to the reality of, ‘well how will I fund my lifestyle’ - not even on some bougie tip, just the necessities and small small enjoyment here and there. I’m a simple babe really, but even the basics of living life, costs money.
It just didn’t seem realistic to take the plunge and create content full time.
Well until, corona.
It’s only been a few days - but I. Am. Loving. It.
Corona aka covid-19, the pandemic that has brought the world to a stand still.
As soon as I saw what was going on in Italy, re: national lock down coupled with rent & bills frozen, I began to imagine a world where the pressures of capitalism were removed, where I could afford to stop chasing money and fearlessly pursue purpose. Whew.
Let’s be honest, if I didn’t have bills to pay, my lady grooming & enjoyment fund was handed to me every month, I would do this thing, for real for real. Day in, day out, with rest in between of course, but it would 100% be my focus.
Being forced to take a break from the business has given me the chance to finally execute some of these ideas.
I’ve been releasing daily vlog style and/ or random content about any and everything, in an unofficial series on my channel, ‘Quarantine & Chill’. The streets have been loving it and it’s been making my heart swell. Not the validation, but
the opportunity to have my time back and just create.
Perhaps I live in lala land and so I always manage to see the silver lining in every cloud. Whilst monthly outgoings may be frozen, it’s just for now, some of those payments will have to be made later - but i’m not going to think about it.
Right now, I’m going to relax, breathe and make the most of these moments.
I’m going to create, create, create, without the pressures of life & paying bills.
This quarantine gave me my precious time back and thus an opportunity to authentically pursue my passions. And for that, I am grateful.
What positive thing has this quarantine done for you?
